Fresh Start?

So I put all of this Kris stuff behind me.
I decided to start fresh.
I called Buffalo IVF and made an appointment.
I found an acupuncturist and started going every week.

Unfortunately, acupuncture was a little more expensive than I anticipated ($160 for the first appointment and $85 every week after) and I was worried my insurance wouldn't cover Buffalo IVF--so Jeff and I decided to wait until we were more financially secure.

By the beginning of 2013 acupuncture helped me get my period back (well until April)
By May 2013 I had lost 20 pounds--So I was feeling pretty good.
I found a new ob/gyn closer to home and he is amazing. It's a small office and i could tell it is the kind of place where you won't get lost in the shuffle. I made my appointment with Buffalo IVF for July and was looking forward to seeing what options he had for us.

By the time our appointment rolled around I was so nervous!
The phone call from Kris was playing on repeat in my head.

Dr. Sullivan was very friendly.
Took some blood and decided to see how my body would respond on femara.
I came back a week later for an internal sono to see if my body produced any follicles.
Alas--there were none.
My blood work was back and I had them fax the results to the office.
As soon as I saw my numbers I knew Kris was right.

A nurse called me and said that Dr. Sullivan would like to have us come in for a consultation, but the earliest she could get me in was at the end of July. He also wanted Jeff to get a sperm analysis--just in case. So we got stuck waiting for 3 weeks. Jeff told me not to worry and that he would have options for us.

That weekend Jeff proposed. Officially engaged and feeling like everything is going our way :)

Three weeks later...
Jeff's numbers are amazing. aka if he was engaged to someone else he would have gotten her pregnant immediately. My numbers are horrible. Dr. Sullivan tells me that there is nothing he can do for me. And that my only options are using a donor egg or adoption.
He tells me to ask my sister to donate one of her eggs--since siblings are 99.95% genetically the same. But she won't.
A known donor egg--cost $10,000  vs. an anonymous donor egg--cost $42,000
I'd say I don't know why she won't, but thats not true. I know why. I just don't want to say.

I found a new acupuncturist, closer to the office and cheaper.
She hooked me up with an herbalist in Seneca Falls who is extremely hard to get an appointment with.
I'm trying not to give up hope. But it's so extremely hard.

So that brings you up to date...